It's been 2 weeks since the birth of Alyssa. I could still remember the earthy scent of her when she first handed to me fresh from vagina. Still find it hard to believe I actually did it. I can't say I have finally overcome the fear of labour, but thank god this whole new level of pain tolerance and childbirth experience is finally over!

Crying Out Loud

Initially I wanted to have all natural childbirth(it makes complete sense why I signed up for hypnobirthing class), we decided to get induction due to low amniotic fluid on 39W1D. From anxiety to fear, then I was completely traumatised. The pain came too quickly I wasn't able to breathe through it. Getting any form of pain relief was never part of my plan because I'm really afraid of needles and the side effects. I almost do though, the pain was so intense I nearly ask to be killed. I found myself persistently inhale on laughing gas. At about 6PM, labour was progressing real slow so they decided to put me on Pitocin to speed things up. Fast forward to 8:30PM I was told to get ready to push. Active labour lasts for about 3 hours, so I was considered very, very lucky as a first-time mum!

Bath Time!

Unfortunately I didn't manage to practise hypnobirthing skills I learned from class, but the rainbow relaxation music is extremely helpful to put me to sleep through my pregnancy. I also did the perineum massage and kegel exercises very regularly—it is said to reduce chance of tearing and episiotomy. So there's no tear & stitches for me I can still walk like a champ after delivery!

I made a public confession to thank Joe for being such a wonderful husband on FB the other day & I didn't mention about the hospital staffs. I wouldn't have done it without them too. I was really lucky to have a bunch of helpful, compassionate, supportive and patient midwives and nurses. I felt like I owed it so much to them especially when I was so vulnerable in the labour room. I didn't know the voice of nurses can be so comforting in the midst of chaos. It's amazing to see how they can handle the worst side of me when we're complete strangers. And my gynae Dr Nic, of course! I love him! My very crucial 3 days after delivery is very smooth sailing. My postpartum recovery is going well, so is my breastfeeding journey.

Breastfeeding is really not easy. Breast engorgement and cracked nipples are yet another whole new experience of pain. I was suffering in pain in my first week I felt so resisted to have baby latch on me. I was also stressed not having enough of milk supply. I didn't want to give up even Joe told me to, as I know breast milk is the best food I can give to my baby.

Save me, mummy!

Childbirth is indeed a very rewarding experience. It's probably strange to have this come out from my mouth but yeah, I'm already looking forward to have another child but when the day comes, I look forward to handle labour with a peace of mind.
Happy Birthday Baby Tofu!

I'm so happy we managed to throw Tofu a mini birthday celebration at home last weekend before we send her off to nanny(haha) in preparation of the day and my admission to confinement centre for a month. I have been telling baby to stay good and well so that I can celebrate with Tofu JJ before her arrival, not really a believer in belly talk but guess she heard me!

Loves of my life!

This year had been all about anxieties—pre-wedding depression, pregnancy anxiety, house hunting/moving pressure... Arghhh how can all the life's big events are happening in a year? We have been counting down since last Q4, seriously. Before one get checked off the list there's always something new coming up next. I'm glad everything is coming to an end before next Q3(?), I hope! I'm type A person, I get panic attack and stressed easily. For that, I'm truly & deeply blessed to have such a patient husband like Joe by my side.

Since I quitted my job before the wedding(hence I'm very poor) and was really bothered with pregnancy sickness for the first 5 months, it was really the most horrible experience in my life. Which is why I owed it so much to Tofu and I'm also thankful for her. With a new family member on her way and soon planning to move into a new house, any financial situation must be taken into account for every decisions we make. And since I'm no longer making decisions on my own, there's always something we/I need to sacrifice for one another—here comes challenging part of marriage, I'm so used to be independent and it has always been about me and myself.

How time flies, I'm in the last weeks of my pregnancy already. Lil cupcake is still actively punching and kicking to the extend I sometimes feel like puking. I'm still scared and worried, at the same time I'm getting very impatient already. Everyone is showing so much love to her before she's even born, I can't imagine how well pampered she's going to be.
Invading Gyeongbokgung Palace

這一天算是我自己蠻期待的一天~ 雖然不是第一次穿上韓服,可是穿韓服進古宮還是人生第一次體驗!早上吃了個早餐我們就走向大街邊尋找出租韓服的店面。試了一段時間,好不容易配到一套讓自己覺得舒服的顏色;也感恩JOE在沒有很願意的情況下,最後還是放開心胸陪我們一起玩~
Bukchon Hanok Village

Bukchon Hanok Village

在弘大區呆了大概三晚就離開了。難得來到了韓國,當然少不了嘗試體驗韓式村屋。所以我們一人拖著兩個笨重的大行李走向又彎又斜的小山路直到我們租的村屋去(其實是走錯方向FML)。這一次吸取的教訓是,如果你真的打算在LOTTE MART狂掃零食和泡菜,請務必把LOTTE MART行程安排到最後一個晚上。-_-

April 2017 (taken by Olympus Pen-F w/ 17mm f1.8)

Hongik E3
Out of Focus
September 2017 (Olympus Mju II w/ Fujifilm Superia 200)


還沒來得及PO完春遊韓國的照片,我已經重遊首爾也回來了一個月多了OMG,而這一次去則是夏末時段。其實我應該慶幸自己可以在一年裡體驗一個國家的兩個季節,可是由於兩個TRIP的時間隔太近了,允許我弱弱的說句我其實有點膩了⋯⋯ 而且夏天給的感覺本來就是應該出海跳水、喂鯊魚或在海灘上看書裝文青和曬太陽的,不是?

Time flew by in a blink of an eye, today marks the last day of my favourite month.

What a huge relief that our wedding is finally over. Nothing really changes though. We have been staying together for almost 2 years. Basically everything is going well as how it's planned earlier, which includes being successfully conceived.

Yes you heard it right! There's a bun in the oven!

Let's just leave the wedding topic aside. The truth is.. I have been too busy being pregnant. I felt horrible for the first few months until recently.. my morning sickness just got better, my fatigue has slowly gone away, my nausea and dizziness are still unpredictable but I've got a way with it. I'm definitely hormonal(even if I'm unpregnant haha) and became very anti-social. I'm trying to feel better about these changes in my body and be optimistic about it.

With all that being said, I can finally skip my afternoon naps now and not feel like an useless person. I can go for grocery shopping and come home to prepare dinner for Joe. I can even take Tofu out for evening walks. I'm not moody to blog/share too. What a blessing! It's just so happy to think about I can finally act like a normal person. T_T Sometimes I don't even remember I have a life growing inside of me.

I have also been attending hypnobirthing classes with Joe to get a better understanding about birth and learn about the effective ways to natural birth, to understand that my body was made to give birth to little humans and most of all, to overcome my fear. After only 2 classes I'm starting to look forward to meet this little cupcake in my tummy and quite eager to experience labour.

I went for a detailed scan the other day and I was completely amazed by everything an ultrasound can show. Seeing the baby making moves and kicking is just something really amazing to look at even I can't feel it yet. For the most part, it was a huge relief to finally learn that my little cupcake is all healthy and growing stronger each day.

Can't wait to meet my gynae next month already!
Red Riding Hood @ Fluffed Cafe Latte @ Fluffed Cafe

Can't believe it's mid March already. It's 2 weeks til our long waited Korea trip(I think we have waited for a year and more) while counting down to another 3 months plus til our big day. I have been so busy lately and I want to believe that it's a good thing. Ever since I come back from Saigon I haven't really got time to just sit down and refresh my memory.

The first 2 months of the year have been insane. We got even more busy since the day we brought home our adorable furkid whom we named Tofu. While being frustrated and stressed out with wedding preps, we got to learn to be patient and train her. She changed our lives completely and also in many ways. We are both new parent so it's so challenging yet so fun to train this lil girl. Most of all we're just so glad that she became a part of our family and brought so much joy to us more than we could ever imagine. I finally understand the phrase that, to us she may just be a pet, but to her, we are the world.

We have also started hunting for a bigger living space as we put family planning into our consideration. I still remembered how such a nightmare it was to move houses twice in a year. Now to think about packing stuff, even with our little studio apartment, it's still the scariest thing I want to refrain from thinking.

Throwback to New Year's Eve, I was already laying on top of bunk bed at 10pm ready to call it a day. I was too tired both physically and mentally. This spontaneous getaway was meant for me to take a break and refresh my mind for the beginning of the year. But it turned out that my brain still couldn't stop thinking about everything and I miss home more than I could ever imagine.


這一年來不算有很大突破,可是生活中卻發生了很值得記錄的大小事:例如搬新家、在潤年的29號給刺了個MATCHING TATTOO、告訴雙方家長我們要結婚了,開始了籌備婚禮的節奏、生日旅行期間意外地被補上了求婚、然後於上個月在親朋好友的見證下完成了註冊手續,成為合法夫妻、買了部新車取代為我們家服務了15年的阿ENG(T__T)⋯⋯去了好多地方走走和旅行、也去了好多的演唱會:RICHARD MARX、鄭秀文、張敬軒、五月天(就差我杰倫哥了,因為放票那天我還在環島嗚嗚)



後來也持續了「一年一部機」的習俗,幾個月前敗了部舊底片機OLYMPUS XA1來玩玩。(心虛中)因為希望三個月內能成功敗下那夢寐以求的微單寶貝回家玩。相機控的掙扎,應該就只有好攝之徒才能明白。加上今年壞了兩個不怎麼便宜的腳架,應該是時候忍痛投資品質好一點的旅行腳架了吧?

就這樣,對我來說算是很不錯的突破,至少實踐了些事,絕對是一個好的開始。今年將會是很忙碌的一年,所以不會定下什麼目標,一切 #順琪自燃(很有梗的說)。當然希望能夠和去年一樣,繼續做自己想要和喜歡做的事情;也希望自己可以一直保持著逆來順受的心態,見招拆招。💃
Flying with AirAsia
light leak surprise

It always give me mixed feeling being at the airport. I wouldn't call it my favourite place, but I like the excitement where I get butterflies in stomach every time I'm about to visit a new place or going back to an old place with different people, or better yet, alone by myself. I also like the feeling of being cut off and unreachable. It pretty much feels like I'm off from the world we all know and it's so good to have that feeling once in a while.

I'm not even halfway through posts about family trip to Bangkok yet. I really just need to jot everything down so that I remember how this particular place and situation made me feel before I forgot, especially when there's no visual evidences of the event.

Flying with AirAsia

Looking back through the past years made me realised how often I travelled. I guess it's the wanderlust in me, everytime a trip ends I will start planning and look forward to next one. Sometimes I can't help but ask myself, am I all set to settle down just yet? To think about it, I owed AirAsia gratitude for making it affordable for people like me, who hardly has any savings, to travel in Southeast Asia with limited budgets. Evon & I are really into being super spontaneous, whenever I have a place to go in mind I will pop the question to her and she'll mostly reply with a "yes let's go!" because why not if the tix rate is within our budget?


I happened to have a lot of airplane wing photos taken from the window seat. It's a love and hate thingy. I used to like window seat a lot, just to make sure I get enough sunlight for my food photos and whatever I'm going to do. Recently I always get the aisle seat, which is good because I don't have to bother anyone to get up so I can use the washroom.

Anyway, back to that question again—am I ready to settle down? I can tell you for sure–HELL YES! I want to believe even with being married and growing our own family, I'll still be able to do what I love. No one knows me better than Joe. I'm 101% sure he will allow me to do and pursue whatever I want. But of course I'm aware that I need to have sense of responsibility because I'm no longer by myself.

Well time is ticking, it's just another 134 days until our big day and we have so much to follow up and it's just so worrying and scary to think of! Joe is trying to calm myself all the time and tell me things will be solve eventually, let's just face it with an open mind. Last few days we had our first ever problem. One of our Airbnb stays in Jeju have been rejected and fully refunded, which really hit me like heart attack. Not only it's one place we were so thrilled to stay at but it will be one of the scenes for our pre-wedding shoot. I actually booked everything last September and innocently thinking we're only waiting for the day to come.

Wedding Preparation Tips #1: Always have a Plan B in your pocket.
Wat Yai Chai Mongkol @ Ayutthaya
Wat Yai Chai Mongkol @ Ayutthaya
Wat Yai Chai Mongkol @ Ayutthaya
Wat Yai Chai Mongkol @ Ayutthaya
Wat Yai Chai Mongkol @ Ayutthaya
Wat Yai Chai Mongkol @ Ayutthaya
Wat Yai Chai Mongkol @ Ayutthaya
Wat Yai Chai Mongkol @ Ayutthaya
Wat Yai Chai Mongkol @ Ayutthaya

(Wat Yai Chai Mongkol)

I was exceptionally looking forward to this day and I'm not disappointed. I like Ayutthaya a lot. Everything from the magnificent buddha statues, the impressive structure of the ruins.. It's just so amazing. Wandering in the ruins made me feel like I've stepped back through time. I made a brief study on Ayutthaya history before the trip so I have an idea of what to expect. I can't wait to visit again next time because we only got to spend half day here this time around.
Ban Mai Chay Nam Museum & RestaurantBan Mai Chay Nam Museum & Restaurant

Made a trip to this museum & restaurant in Khao Yai for lunch during my family trip to Thailand last month.